Heavy Heart

Report cards are finished, submitted, and printed. Now to just fold them and send them home. One fiasco finished.  Progress Reports for IEP goals are almost finished to go home with them. Grant to the Okemos Education Foundation submitted so that (hopefully!) they will decide to fund my Apple iPad 2 requests :) Excited and hopeful for that!

We had a crazy conversation between my kiddos, the parapro, and myself today.

C: Do you have any kids?
Me: Nope! I have two cats. And all of you are my kids!
L: When we grow up will you marry one of us??????
Me: (laughing) No, silly, I'm already married. Plus you're too young for me!
...a minute or two later as we are walking down the hallway, half way to music...
L: Are you going to marry Mr. G?
Me: (again laughing) No... he's married, too. We're both taken care of. Don't worry, someone will pick you some day.
C: I'm going to marry my girlfriend some day!
Me: You should be allowed to have a girlfriend in the 1st grade!!!

Gosh, these boys warm my heart :)

On a heavier note...

At our staff meeting this morning my school Social Worker talked about reporting abuse, telling us the reasons why it is our job, and how it can help individuals in a bad situation.  Listening to her speak almost broke my heart because of a family situation for one of my kiddos... I can't let go of the fact that I can't fix everything. It's really been weighing HEAVY on my heart that things are changing for him. The things he repeats that he has heard at home are just killing me... And the fact that he can verbalize that he is upset that someone at home is telling him he is not allowed to talk to anyone or tell things to people just plants a seed of suspicion and worry in my mind.

There are so many things in life I wish I could "fix"... and there are things that I just can't let go of.  I don't know how, or maybe I just WON'T let go... The toll this is taking on me is starting to show. How do I do this with grace and sanity???